9:50 PM

alright i guess i just went through a rather screwed day. i think i srsly screwed my midyears. i. fail. two. sciences. ): k thats super depressing becos i thought i studied enough. bloody hell also lose to vincent. (eh smelly i'm sure u bloody studied la scammer lol.) it was a damn letdown la. at least i could hold the emo till i got home cos we were too caught up with playing soccer and volleyball. haha. i miss volleyball. =\. i'm gonna become a super mugger soon. no choice alr. sian.

well these few days i was thinking of so many things and i thought i had to let it out for the last time. its disturbing to see couples and sweet things. hahah. some people like that lor for the past few days, damn what sia. i'm tired and i cant think very well so there are shitloads of stuff in my head. worrying about Os, about having to leave our chungcheng environment and adapt to a new one soon, about whether we'll all still keep in contact and stuff. i guess till now i'm still living in the past, in something that i cant put down. i feel so stupid whenever i think about it, becos its killing me so silently. each day i crumble under this latent pain, without being able to retaliate or do anything about it for that matter. i'm losing my head. i know i have to put it down alr, and i will. time doesn't seem to heal wounds very well. its the distance that grows. soon this distance will be too great and nothing will be left. ah fuck whatever.

i have to stop worrying and emo-ing, or i am really gonna screw everything up. enough of this pain, of this bad karma. i'll die if this goes on. PLEASE EMATHS PAPER2 TURN OUT WELL. luckily we're going cage tomorrow, good way to release some steam. so please, get out of my head i'm sick and tired of everything.

haha anyway happy birthday shuhua! i cant believe so many things have happened alr. TIME PASSES DAMN QUICKLY. it has already been 3 and a half years. and we will be going our own ways by the end of this year. ah. fuck.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007
rocked.