1:16 AM

i don't know of words that can rly explain how i'm feeling right now. i gues now the truth has really hit me hard, after i saw the testimonial at friendster. suddenly jus felt this ache in my heart.

brother, remember sec1? i remember my first impression of you wasn't really good. i thought you had the kaopei face la, and everyone thought so too la. so maybe i tried to keep my distance, just so to avoid you whacking me. haha. but somehow i ended up sitting with you in the backrow of the class. though i don't have any pictures left, i clearly remember it in my mind. those were the days. "guoxiang and eeruey stop talking." "zai hou mian de liang ge, bu yao jiang hua." haha funny. somehow we have endless things to talk about, even up till now. (why doesn't it work for us this way in other aspects. u'll know what i mean.) haha. then you introduced to me some of the sec2s at that time. which ultimately led us to our first clique, retardie. lol it was fun la those days where a whole bunch of us would go out and stuff. and go kp people who tag anonymously on their blogs. too bad it didn't really last. i gues next was broken. when we helped the netball coach. haha it was stil quite weird on how we managed to start off, by playing netball. okay. it all started wif kboxing, though u weren't there. somehow this clique started off and there we went. pardon me, but i vaguely remember those days. i do remember we used to hang out at heartland mall. haha. fun. then a period of time we hanged out with colleen, yinqin and james quite a lot. i dunno if that was counted as a clique, but those days were sure fun. spending our days at the park, in yinqin's room, at colleen's house. oh i do miss lucky. those days were fun, and so carefree. i don't remember how this kinda ended, but it was sure wasted. next was losers. it was quite cute on how we started, having shuhua and chantelle around. haha we sure do regret what we should have done hor? wasted.. in comparison with now. zz. oh well, whats done is done. it was somewhat innocent at that time, where there were absolutely no problems at all. just pure fun. soon came the great merger of losershit. stil cant rmb who came up with this name. sure it sounds weird, but it was awesome. the most memorable time was at sentosa. i do have the pictures but lazy upload. it was only the two of us guys, but that didnt stop us did it? haha we stil had fun anyway. soon many others came into the pictures after some connections and stuff. we all digged each other. there were certainly no problems that time. colleens birthday was a bomb man. we had fun together and stuff. pity it didn't take place this year ): ): next year okay must ok. this year, came RAP. problems after problems. perhaps that explained all our heart-pouring sessions i guess. walks at the beach, or just sitting down somewhere. i stil remember a particular period of time in the past, we even went out on movies together la. haha. it wasn't just a few, it was quite a lot. we even went shopping together and stuff. call us gay, this is true friendship man.

bro, what i meant to say that is, i dunno what life would be like without you man. so don't give up on any hope on staying here with us. who will be my next best friend if you're gone man. i'm behind you all the way, i'm sure the rest of us will be too. together we'll all fight this shit man, and get through it like we've done in the past. don't let this end everything.

Thursday, November 02, 2006
rocked.