1:09 AM

i feel like crying. but i can't. i gotta hold it back. how much pain am i feeling inside. dunt u feel it too?. wasn't it suppose to be forever.. it didn't didn't it?. this is just fucked. i can't take it. the pain i feel inside. it's burning. burning . i can't take it anymore.. i cant take another broken heart. this is crushing. just crushing. wadever the reason is. i dun give a shit. it's my fault ok. it always has been. i duno wad the fuck is happening. why is this happening. everything was fine beforee. is this a dream. i wan to wake up. wake me up from this nightmare... wad the hell is this. this isn't wad's suppose to happen. I FEEL LIKE HITTING SOMEONE.I WAN TO VENT THIS PAIN. I WAN TO JUST . BREAK DOWN. I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE. IF THIS IS WAD U WAN. I WILL GIVE IT TO U. FUCK. SCREW THIS SHIT. LOVE MEANS NTH AT ALL. WORDS. JUST WORDS. NO MEANING FOR IT. USELESS. IT DOESN'T MEAN ANY SHIT. IT CAN JUST START LIKE THIS AND END LIKE THIS. ITS JUST A FEELING TT MAKES USE OF BOTH PPL. WAD ARE THE ODDS OF IT TURNING OUT WELL. IT BREAKS MORE HEARTS THEN IT JOINS. SO SCREW THIS FUCK. I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE OK. ANGER. JUST PURE ANGER IN ME. WAD DID I DO. SO MUCH FOR FOREVER... knn...

Sunday, December 19, 2004
rocked.