10:00 PM

many things are going through my head right now. finally after common test i have time to really sit down and think about everything. perhaps during common test i had no time to think at all, just study study study. well finally its over i have some time to myself. i've been thinking. firstly, friends have been rather a big problem. many things happening around. rather complicated. all i can hope for, is for everyone to, get back together again, cos i really dun not know what to do for them. haiz. another thing.. just wan to say that.. this is really all a misunderstanding. no matter what explaination i give for why i said that stupid wrong word will not be accepted or anything. i just wanna say that, this has been bothering me really badly on the inside. i may seem strong, but i really am feeling very vulnerable cos of that.. seeing that you're having fun and stuff, i can't bear to say anything. but to keep everything to myself. i just wan to say. i love you. i stil do. it really has been hard.. just being able to see you is able to make my day. even my week.. i really do wish to do something. but its all too late now. all i can do is to see you be happy. as the saying goes, if you really love somebody, you have to let the person go..

Thursday, March 30, 2006
rocked.